Am I arrogant?
Am I prideful or haughty?
Am I ever full of myself and narcissistic?
Facebook, Twitter, blogging and any number of other websites provide ample opportunity for me to share about my family and my life in South Africa. My thoughts, my activities, my children’s words and antics are all fair game for my posts. I could easily become full of myself as I share about me, myself and I.
A few years ago, I entered the Facebook world to stay in touch with my family and friends. Living in South Africa and being about as far away from my family and friends as I can get, Facebook helps me stay connected. I love that about it!
Five years ago, I began blogging because I wanted to encourage my family and friends in their faith walk with Christ. The joy of my heart is serving my God and helping others see how valued and loved they are in Christ.
These motivations were pure. And in all honesty, that’s where my motivation and desire to communicate remains as I Facebook and blog. A friend of mine recently posted this article, “Seven Ways to Be Insufferable on Facebook” in the Huffington Post, and it rocked me. It caused me to evaluate my internet communication motivation. Of course, this is just one person’s opinion of what he sees on Facebook, but isn’t that what we all do? We draw quick conclusions or develop an impression of some one based upon what they post…either holding our interest to read, like or comment or dismissing it and moving on down the thread.
The question I came to ask myself is this; am I posting Facebook entries or blogs that reflect my love for my Savior or reflect my love of me?
You know what I want the answer to be. I want everything that I do, everything that I say, and everything that I write to honor my God. I want my posts to lift others up and not bring anyone down. If my words do not encourage and edify, then there is no need to write them. So, yes, this is the posture I want to take in the world of internet communication. This is the impression I want others to have of me. In my opinion, there is too much criticism, arrogance and hurt shared on the web that inflicts harm and leads to misunderstanding.
That’s not me.
Perhaps it’s because I know what it’s like to be hurt; wounded by the insensitive and abusive words of others. In my world of me, myself and I, there’s no need to be mean.
But the world does not center upon me. I’m not in control of anything or anyone. However, I do have the power of choice of how I will live and communicate.
I choose to communicate the love, grace, and mercy of my God and my Savior, Jesus Christ. This love, grace and mercy are from Him, not me.
Because I can tell you that I don’t want to be prideful, but I am at times.
I can tell you that I don’t want to be arrogant, but I can be.
I can tell you that I don’t want to be haughty or narcissistic, but in all honesty, I do want other people to care what I think about and what I am doing and be interested in my family and me.
Do you feel that way?
Or is it just me?
In Zephaniah 3:12, the prophet wrote these words,
…I will leave within you
the meek and humble.
The remnant of Israel
will trust in the name of the Lord. Zephaniah 3:12 NIV
The people described here were the poorest, the lowest, and the most afflicted and wretched of their time. Their God chose to save this loyal remnant because of their humility and trust in Him. Trust, according to the Hebrew transliterated word chacah, meant that these people had sought their safety, protection and refuge in their God; because they had found that they could depend on no one else. Chacah demonstrated the trust, confidence and hope that these lowly and humble men and women placed in their God for their identity and their worth. No one else was interested.
They may have been looked over and considered of little consequence in the eyes of the arrogant and proud. However, in the eyes of their God, these men and women were considered of great value. They were chosen because of their humility before God.
So, here I am, writing another blog post. If I am writing to gain the interest, attention and honor of others, I am self-focused and proud. It offers my God nothing. If I am writing to bring honor to my God, then I pray that the content serves Him and draws some one into a closer and more meaningful relationship with Him; however that works by the power of His Spirit.
I am not responsible for how others respond (or don’t) to what I write or the impressions that I may make before them. I really have no control or influence in that way. However, I am responsible and accountable to my God for what I write and why I write it. I need to ask myself the question, “What’s my motivation: to serve my God or to serve me?”
Ultimately, what matters most is what my God thinks. For me, that’s the point of posting in the first place. He is the One who knows my heart and its motivation for better or worse as I post to Facebook or write another blog post.
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