Hope : A Heart-filling Antidote

I cried this morning.

I was surprised that my eyes grew tearful, actually.

When John came home this morning after working out at the gym and I began to share with him about a Whatsapp message I had just received, I couldn’t talk without choking up and without tears welling in my eyes. The emotions of disappointment and hurt gushed to the surface.

No one had done anything wrong.

Not really.

Yet, I found myself battling against feelings that I had been slighted. I won’t betray any confidences, because as I shared no one did anything intentionally hurtful. Suffice it to say, though, I was asked to prepare for something that required significant time and thought. I was asked to reserve a particular date. And then on the eve of that opportunity, I was messaged that something else had come up and a postponement was needed.

At first, I took it as “Okay, Lord. You’re in this. I’ll wait for you to show me how to proceed.”

And then thirty minutes later, John returns home, and I’m trying to tell him about it, and I’m crying.

Why?

I realized that the disappointment had yielded a demoralizing blow.

Honestly, I was looking forward to this opportunity and to have time out of the house. Since starting my seventh home school year, I honestly don’t get out that much. My time is spent with my crew in the Happy Blue School from 7:30 am – 2:00 pm most days of the week. Then I’m on to other household chores, dinner prep, and then classwork (I’m taking two courses right now).

As I prayed through this situation, and then dove into my hope study this morning, I read these words:

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.
For those who are evil will be destroyed,
but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.
(New International Version, Psalm 37: 8-9)

So there you go!

A perfect set of verses for a certain situation – mine!

I have a choice in how to handle what happened today and where I will focus my cares and attention….

I can allow my hurt and disappointment to morph into anger, spitefulness, worry, and anxiety which in turn has the potential to lead to a greater evil.

Or I can choose a waiting, heart-filling hope.

Friends, there is nothing wrong that happened today. There was no intent on the part of others to wound me.

Yet, I was.

The danger now is that I could allow that unintended hurt and disappointment to agitate me, rile me up, and poison my heart.

Because that is what evil does – it sinks its venomous teeth into our hearts and strikes deep until the poison has done its ravaging work. The corrupted toxins cause us to cast accusing eyes at anyone besides ourselves. Instead, we rage against those who we feel are to blame for our pain – even if our wounds are self-inflicted.

How grateful I am for the word of God.

This morning, these precious, but truth yielding words lifted my heart above my circumstances:

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.
For those who are evil will be destroyed,
but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.

(New International Version, Psalm 37: 8-9)

This hope is from the Hebrew transliterated word qavah. Qavah means to wait, to look for, and to expect. Qavah is a waiting hope.

This kind of hope runs deep. For just as evil desires to penetrate my heart and take root, hope desires to do just the same. This kind of waiting hope focuses my heart upon the manifestation of Christ in my life today and in the Kingdom that He has promised.

Evil wants me to cast my lot with the offenses of today and be ruined.

Hope asks me to trust in the grace, mercy and covenant blessing of my Savior and be encouraged.

Hope inspires me to look beyond what I see and feel and embrace the promises I have in Christ as I wait for Him to keep His word.

My heart could have been infected by a dangerous and deadly poison this morning.

Instead, I chose to combat this evil toxin with a powerful, life-giving antidote.

Hope

Friends, I refuse to be laid bare by discouragement. It’s okay to feel it. And deal with it. But it’s not okay to allow it to fester and grow into something wicked and harmful. There’s too much of that festering and pestering, furor and frenzy, bitterness and indignation, and raging going on these days, don’t you think?

Who wants that – when there is hope?

There’s a good, restful and heart-filling land of ours for the taking – it comes through a waiting hope.

Let’s take the antidote.

Let’s drink up on hope and rest in the divine justice and  intimate care that is ours in Christ.

Yes, I was disappointed today – but I won’t let that discouragement define me.

I choose hope because the Lord is in it!

2 thoughts on “Hope : A Heart-filling Antidote

  1. Thank you again. I was so depressed yesterday over “the world.” Nothing I can do but pray! God kept telling me Hope in Him…this is not my home. Whatever prep work you did for this opportunity God will not waste…He will use it…whatever it is! Praying for you!

    1. Dear Sondra,

      I am so sorry you have been feeling down about what is happening in our world. Praying and keeping our eyes on our Lord is both a great comfort and our great hope. Like you, I don’t know what is exactly going on and why, but I do know that nothing occurs without the knowledge of our God. Remember this, the evil one wants us stirred up and feeling anxious, not our Heavenly Father. As I am learning from Job, the hope he held onto was a cord of hope between him and his God. Hold on, Sondra. Our Lord has you and He will sustain you – no matter what is happening and the circumstances that swirl about us. Thank you for your prayers for me. I am grateful for them.

      I am going to see what happens with this postponed opportunity. The Lord may be preparing me for a new venture – or it just could be that the timing is off and we just need to reset. Time will tell. I appreciate your care.

      With love,
      heather

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